Today marks the end of the seventh week for me of being in lockdown, staying safe at home, and also working from home full time, due to the pandemic of COVID 19. Today is also the last day of April and my birthday month!

I work in the corporate world and am grateful that I still have a job and have the ability to work virtually. It has been an adjustment, hard at first, but about two weeks into lockdown I found my groove, new routines and am feeling okay. I would even say thriving in some ways. 

I reflect on the way it’s been and what this interesting time has brought me and one of the things that stands out and I have grown to love and am grateful for, is having the gift of TIME. 

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Time for my yoga practice. 

Time for moments of stillness. 

Time to connect to friends and family (in a virtual way). 

Time for reflection.

Time to have a long morning routine, where I sip on my matcha and drink my smoothie, slowly. 

Time for creativity. In the kitchen. In crafts. In my yoga projects. 

Time to read. 

Time to journal.

Time to meditate. 

Time to cuddle with my dog.

Time for cooking all my meals.

Time to eat mindfully. 

Time to go for long walks. 

Why do I feel like I have more time? 

Because, I feel less rushed. Less rushed in getting to my destinations. Less rushed to be somewhere, or meet someone. Forced space has been created and I’m not one to complain. 

Today my province announced the slow reopening in two weeks time, of certain businesses. I did have an element of fear come up, as I’m almost hesitant to want the old “norm” to come back. I worry and think everything will just go back to that busy, hustle and bustle life. But at the same time I want to maintain the time I’ve had given to me now and somehow extend it, once we go back to the “norm”. 

Or will it be a new norm? One where we all will be more mindful of our time, to not rush. To be more present with ourselves.

This space and gift of time, and having less places to go to, therefore less to do, makes me think about how I structured my days before and how structured our lives have been for us. 

New perspective

I feel more grateful for a time we are forced to stay in as it’s brought new perspective. New perceptive on how life was “busy”, and that feeling of being rushed or rushing from place to place. Is it because I was feeling that way and putting pressure on myself to keep up, keep up with the pace of sort of that societal pressure. A busy pace imposed on us.

Even though I miss seeing my family and friends, it’s been a precious time to be with my husband and puppy everyday. And more time truly for me! For me to do all the things I just didn’t have time for or didn’t make time for because I was out doing all the things! 

This being at home, doesn’t suck. But at the same time I want to go back to doing the things and going places. 

Once we go back to some sort of “norm” of our society going back to not being in lockdown anymore, I will create more space so I have TIME. Time to not feel rushed. 

Time to allow space in. Time to reflect. Time to be still. 

How have you spent your time during lockdown? Are you finding the upside? or maybe focusing more on the downside?

How are you feeling?

Check in, notice. 

Namaste, 

Marzena